Important Note:  Combat does not just mean fighting overseas.  Combat is the military fighting a foreign enemy, law enforcement officers fighting for their very lives, firefighters rushing into a burning building, EMS rushing into a horrific scene, etc.

Every day I was in combat all I thought about was home.  When I got home all I thought about was combat.  Combat is exhilarating.  Just because you enjoy the amazing adrenaline rushes involved in mortal combat does not make you a psychopath.

Killing the Enemy:  Combat is of such emotional intensity that strange elations can come from the act of killing.  Opponents pit themselves against each other with the certain knowledge that one will be vanquished and one will be victorious.

The conflict is often at close quarters.  You can hear, see, smell, and ultimately touch your antagonist.  Sheer terror propels the violence emitting from both sides.  All want to live, but one can live only by the death of the other.  And when that death does fall to the opponent, there is a great sense of relief.

How curious the fallen look.  Instantly their ashen bodies begin to meld with the ground.  It is uncanny.  As you look, you sense a great deal of pleasure in your being alive.  He who was so full of animation a few moments ago now lie eternally inanimate.  You are alive; a future is still yours.

Countless times the survivor has that sensation until the pleasure of life is confused with a pleasure of killing.

The good feeling comes when the enemy is killed, and soon the confusion sets in that the good feeling comes because the enemy is killed, not for the real reason: that you are still alive.

Only by killing is life sustained.  This is the way of war.

After You Take Another Person’s Life:  First there is the exhilaration stage in which there might be joy and elation.

The common psychological term for this is “Survivor Euphoria.  Then there is a backlash of remorse and nausea.  Many warriors vomit after their first kill.  Sometimes they say, “My God, I just killed a man, and it felt good.  What’s wrong with me?”

Finally, there is a lifelong process of rationalization and nausea.  If this process fails, it can be one of the paths to PTSD.

Some warriors have said that they felt satisfaction, from killing, but they did not experience the backlash of remorse and nausea.  “All I felt was the recoil (Marine Scout Sniper when asked by a reporter how he feels after he shots someone).”

Some of them were even worried that there might be something wrong with them because they did not feel anything.

There were many individuals who were in their 20s, 30s and 40s who did have remorse and nausea after they killed, but there were also many who did not.

It is believed that the primary reason why their experiences were more positive, if you will, is because they were mature warriors who had done the rationalization and acceptance process ahead of time, before they actually had to drop the hammer on someone.

Basically, they said to themselves:  I don’t want to have to kill anyone, but if someone gets in front of my weapon and tries to kill me or someone else, I will do what my society employs, equips, empowers, enables and requires me to do.

By having resolved this issue in their minds ahead of time, their responses were healthier and they were able to return to their lives without the residual problems experienced by the young troops and those not properly trained.

There was absolutely nothing wrong with the warriors who responded with guilt and nausea when they killed in combat.

There was also nothing wrong with the warriors who were psychologically prepared to kill and did not experience such powerful emotions.

But if you had the option, which would you choose?

It is largely a 20th Century affectation, a modern, self-inflicted psychic wound, to believe that you will be mentally destroyed or emotionally harmed by the act of killing during lawful combat.  It has been found based on interviews with hundreds of men and women who have had to kill, that if you tell yourself that killing will be an earth-shattering, traumatic event, then it probably will be.  But if you do the rationalization and acceptance ahead of time, if you prepare yourself and immerse yourself in the lore and spirit of mature warriors past and present, then the lawful, legitimate use of deadly force does not have to be a self-destructive or traumatic event.

Combat kills enough; it destroys enough.  It is madness to let your combat experiences harm you after the battle, if you could have prevented it through prior preparation.  The older you are the easier this rationalization can be.  It helps if you have maturity and life experiences under your belt.

But most important of all is mental preparation: to have the warrior spirit, the bulletproof mind, in place ahead of time.  When you prepare yourself for killing prior to the event, you are less likely to respond in panic, more likely to deter your opponent, and less likely to take his or her life inappropriately.  You are also better prepared to live with the situation afterward and less likely take your own life after the event.

Once you are forced to kill in your role as a warrior, there is a set of structures in place that society has created to help you live with what you have done.

The first structure is that of praise and acceptance from peers and superiors.  Warriors do not fight for medals; they do it for their buddies and friends.

The second structure that helps the warrior is the presence of mature, older comrades who are there for them.

The moral of the story:  combat is fun; yet not at all.


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By David Devaney

David K. Devaney SgtMaj USMC Retired 2009 City of Hit Iraq with PTTDavid was born in Geneva New York and graduated from Geneva High School in 1980. He joined the Marine Corps on a guaranteed Infantry contract in April of 1983. After graduating boot camp he was stationed in Hawaii with 3rdBattalion 3rd Marines (3/3). While assigned to 3/3 he held billets as a rifleman, fire team leader, and squad leader. During 1986 Corporal (Cpl) Devaney was selected as a member of Surveillance and Target Acquisition (STA) Platoon, 3rd Battalion 3rd Marine. Upon graduation of Scout Sniper School he was assigned to the Scout Sniper Section of 3/3 STA Platoon. During his second deployment as a Scout Sniper with 3/3 he was promoted to Sergeant (Sgt). After a tour on the drill field from 1989-1991 Sgt Devaney returned to STA 3/3 were he deployed two more times. During 1994 Sgt Devaney was selected to the rank of Staff Sergeant (SSgt) and ordered to III Marine Expeditionary Force (III MEF), Special Operation Training Group (SOTG); while at SOTG SSgt Devaney was assigned as a Reconnaissance and Surveillance (R&S) and Urban Sniper Instructor and Chief Instructor. At the time III MEF SOTG Instructors were members of Joint Task Force 510 (JTF 510 CT); a Counter Terrorism Task Force. In 1998 he deployed to Operation Desert Fox with Battalion Landing Team (BLT) 2/4 and was attached to Operational Detachment Alpha (ODA) 572/594 as a sniper. SSgt Devaney deployed again, during 2000, with ODA 135/136/132 to Malaysia as member of JTF 510, working with the Malaysian National Police. After leaving SOTG Gunnery Sergeant (GySgt) Devaney was assigned to Company A 1st Battalion 7th Marine, and spent much of his time training the Scout Snipers of 1/7. Just before the invasion of Iraq, in 2003, he was selected to the rank of First Sergeant (1stSgt) and led 270 Marines, sailors, and soldiers during combat – receiving a Bronze Star Medal for destroying the enemy and their will to fight. During 2004 1st Sgt Devaney was ordered to duty as the Inspector Instructor Staff 1st Sgt for 2nd Beach and Terminal Operations Company, Savannah, Georgia. During 2007 he was selected to the rank of Sergeant Major (SgtMaj) and received orders to Electronic Warfare Squadron 4 (VMAQ-4) stationed at Cherry Point, NC. There he trained a CADRE which in turn trained a massive Quick Reaction Force in combat operations. After two more deployments to Iraq SgtMaj Devaney received orders to Weapons Training Battalion, Quantico, VA. SgtMaj Devaney retired from the Marine Corps on 31 December 20013. He now works as an adjunct combat instructor at the “Crucible’’ in Fredericksburg, VA. David is also on the Board of Directors of the Marine Corps Scout Sniper Association. David’s published work: Books Devaney, D.K. (2007). Surviving combat: Mentally and physically (3rd edition). 29 Palms, CA: USMC. Devaney, D.K. (2015). They Were Heroes: A Sergeant Major’s Tribute to Combat Marines of Iraq and Afghanistan. Annapolis, Maryland: Naval Institute Press. Articles Devaney, D.K. (2011) Enough Talk of Suicide, Already! Proceedings Magazine. Devaney, D.K. (2011) Can PTSD Be Prevented Through Education? Proceedings Magazine. Devaney, D.K. (2012) PTSD Is Not Cancer. The Marine Corps Gazette. Devaney, D.K. (2012) Women in Combat Arms Units. The Marine Corps Gazette.

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